May 28, 2012

  • 1.If indeed when one is invited to write a memoir of his earlier parts of life, he is tempted by not only the past but his gravity for creation to rectify or romanticize, he then when choosing the paths of his future, will be equally tempted by what he intent to become in the future, which creation and sensitivity take place of sensibility.

    There are indeed a lot of things I want to do, but then time is fair to all, wise are those who choose the most important one to focus on, and the foolish ones take too much fancy which in turn become unbearable. Therefore finally decided to abort the internship application, focus my time on finishing some important readings regarding my honours project, continuing waiting for the professor's project on Legco to commence, find summer jobs concerning chess to obtain an obscene amount of money.

    2. Studying psychology gives me great pleasure in understanding myself. In abnormal psychology the psycho-dynamic school by Freud is particularly interesting. It seems that all my weird behaviours are all explanable and acceptable, given R.D. Laing's famous quote "Irrationality is the perfectly rational adjustment to an irrational world"

    Hugging my pillow and taking it my ex-girlfriend, talking to it and making apology before going to bed occasionally.

    Feeling myself changing from getting to the image of her wanted me to be, to leaving it.

    They are all within the reach of psycho-dynamics, I am now feeling a bit more normal for being abnormal.

    3. Met a pretty young Russian girl in the chess club, talked about some logics in chess as well as flashed my accent a bit. She seemed to appreciate it very much and said that I am very clever, despite her deficit in English she still understands what I am implying.

    When she was leaving she gave me a passionate hug (Which I guess is common in Russia), and I could sort of feel her boobs.

    The thing is that because we as youngsters still know relatively less about the world, young innocent girls can fall in love easily by some empty speeches of men older than them, they would not know it even if that men bullshitted some random stuffs. The same happens to young boys who would admire any young male teachers who seem to know the world much more than they do (Which is commonplace knowledge if you get to that age)

    Just like Communism one can easily overestimate the bright side of human nature and knowledge, should always be careful about that. But seriously if she is a little older than she now is and she does not have a boyfriend, I would propose to her.

    Pics next week.