September 1, 2012

  • Now training myself like a fucking samurai. Running, Push-Up, Reading, Studying, Controlled Diet.

    The mistake made was that whatever logically conceivable is not working in reality. Our body, emotions, must win in 100% whenever our mind wants to fight them.

    When you study overnight your body crashes, you want to conceal your emotion in fact led to a greater breakdown, one cut in some bad habit gave a worse than ever relapse.

    If you want to build up yourself, you must find a harmony and gradually change things, not just always impetuous once-for-all, such change must always fail, such fought against the body and emotions of selves. Body and emotions are not our enemies, they tell us what we need. Ignoring them is not good, learn to feel what they say and change that part.

    All the essence of life is a mere "Punch when you have to punch, Kick when you have to Kick," Such simple, such difficult. If you are not able to position with honesty in observation to yourself, you will always find the wrong plan and get into quagmire.

    That summarises my intern experience. The problem was the unimpressing was due to over-impressing. Should I have learnt my position better with honesty to myself, I would have contended myself with what I have, and do what I was told. I felt useless and tried for more, ended up got isolated with the acts of impressions considered by others as unnecessary troubles.

    Hmm, four years of writing and finally I am now feeling evolved.